No more lj.

So yesterday started off pretty bad.

I wasn't in a good mood at the show. I'm sure the expression on my face showed that.

Also. I never really go to shows with anyone. I just show up, listen to the bands I want to listen to, and then go out to eat with friends after usually. I know how much of a loner I look like at shows but I'm okay with it. I'm not insecure standing by myself at a show. I don't need to drag friends around all over the venue like most people I saw there. I go for the music. Sorry just had to get that out there...


But what irritated me last night was how many people were telling me to smile more and cheer up. I was nearly on the verge of tears talking to Rick. He's just not sensitive. He told me "Get the fuck over it Jeanette. Big fucking deal." I'm sorry but when you say something like that to me its NOT going to help. You're just going to make me feel even worse about the situation.

But before I left Jon Huber called me over before leaving. He gave me some of the best advice I've heard in awhile. And coming from someone I'm not the greatest of friends with, that really meant a lot to me. Then again I'm sure he was just trying to boost my ego. Either way he really cheered me up and I wish I knew more people as caring as he is.


After last night I learned that its not so horrible to lose. Life will constantly be taking away from you. And when you try and hold on, pieces of you will only be torn away.

Haha I probably wont be talking about anything interesting fyi.